Thursday, December 22, 2011

One down another to go..

Alhamdulillah..end of orthopedic posting..and welcome dear medical into my life.
thank you Allah for the blessing. Thank you to the specialists, my supervisor Miss I, and my colleagues. It's been a very pleasant posting..I've learned a lot and need to learn more...

Allright, it's medical posting. haha being houseman "jonah" since day 1. Good God! Need to learn fast..need to work fast..yet efficient. Go go go!

p/s: bila nak balik ni...

Monday, November 7, 2011

Sacrifice

Sacrifice...I always thought that being a medical student we need to sacrifice a lot. But being a doctor we need to sacrifice even more.. but truly indeed, when we become doctors, the ones that close to us sacrifice much more than us.. But for me, sacrifice did not mean suffering. Or hopelessness. It may be a spark of joy. And sometimes it is for the better future.

Sorry for not being the best son, siblings, friends...

Happy Eid to all.





Sunday, October 9, 2011

27th IIUM Convocation! (8/10/11)

But it is first for me...



Well, it is a meaningful day for me..finally I officially graduated! After 7 years of campus life...here I am now.



















Well Razak is the first person I saw that day...thanks for being a good friend but just an advice to you "Razak, kurangkan buat dosa!haha"











Ha dah nak masuk ni la baru nak belajar cara nak pakai robe memang la jadi camni.








































OK, I'm ready! Let's go...













Salam dengan SUK tu...I thought I will be shaking hand with Sultan (frustrated sket la kan..haha)











End of ceremony...time for pictures.

























Thank you for all the help and support..Sorry for any difficulties that I make intentionally or not.
Well that's all..anyway one thing for sure my eyes can't lie eventhough I tried... (I will improve..hehe)



Psst, ni time "kejadian sebelum pembelian" ke?













Anyway thanks for the flower. Full of sincerity, love it!

Thursday, October 6, 2011

cuti ...cuti....hehe

bestnya cuti lepas sebulan keje.

jumpa keluarga, kawan2...

Monday, August 15, 2011

Time up!

It is the end of the days of unemployment for me...I will attend an induction course for the job tomorrow...the 3 months that I took for granted had long gone...I always took for granted for the things that I had and regretted it later after it gone.

That's it Afif. It is time to move forward and hope for the best. Time to start a new chapter in life. I've even cut my 3-month-long hair. Hope for the best in the future! Fighting!

Sunday, July 24, 2011

How to Love

Let a person who want to depart, go
Let a person who want to sleep, sleep
And yet in the time that remains, keep silent
And towards the flowers..
And towards the heavens..
And towards the grave..
Do not rush, keep silent

(The sad way to love...Taken from Korean Drama Midas. Quoting a drama..I must be pretty much b.o.r.i.n.g now haha)

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Congratz My Friends

A very, very late entry...anyway congratz to all my friends that had married recently

Wan Ikram & Fatin
My housemate & my "orang kampung" truly meant for each other

Nuaim & his wife
walimah with most attendance...!


Not to forget to Salam, Sharifah Aishah, Bahiyah, Hafiz Mohamad...Congratz!!!


Friday, July 22, 2011

Blogku Penuh Sawang..

Lama dah tak post apa-apa kat sini...tengah recollecting mood..so many things happen yet too little of time, mood, internet connections....wait for the comeback (haha macam la blog ni smarties giler)

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Life

credit to Bill Watterson

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Bad Commercials...

Do you like to eat KK? Well, I do. I used to love it during my childhood...Why? Because it is crunchy and tasty..what a lovable taste. (Boleh jadi promoter ni)

Yum...Yum...

But I'm not here to promote KK but to talk about its bad, bad commercial (At least for my point of view). Why should I discuss about this? It is because the way they portrait it in the newspapers as if KK is way better than egg & bread (I think there is one more KK commercial but I couldn't find it) Ok lets have a look at commercials below.


Seriously, an egg vs a bowl of "KK AND milk"? 2 slices of white bread vs a bowl of KK?

Sorry "Sarangle". I definitely choose the egg and bread. Why?

1) It is way, way cheaper.
30 sen of an egg vs RM7++ of KK? And it only took RM3++ for a loft of bread. Give me a break. It is incomparable.

2) It is less boring.
Would you eat KK and milk for breakfast everyday? I won't. It will be freaking boring. On the other hand, you could make thousands recipes of breakfast using bread & egg..(well I may be hyperbole it a bit..or much)

3) It more nutritious.
Seriously guys.. It give you more than protein & fiber...It also provide vitamins, fat, carbohydrates...which are essentials for your body.

That's all I could think right now. Well I don't think KK or other breakfast cereals are bad but it definitely not superior than bread and egg. And I don't hate KK in fact I love and enjoy eating it. I just hate the bad commercials.

Monday, June 13, 2011

Home At Last...

I have yet literally rest at home since the final professional until yesterday..Here is why..

1) Oath Ceremony

Oath of Muslim Physician

"I render this Oath in Thy Holy name & I undertake..."
(insyaAllah we will be a good & safe doctor, do pray for us)

Group picture...click it for a bigger view!!
(anyway have you spot the hidden me in both pictures? haha)

2) X Batch Annual Graduation Dinner

Table 10!! Had a nice dinner that day...wish to had it again. (But for free!)

Our very own choral speaking...sweet & cheerful!
(Sorry for bhangra & zapin groups, couldn't get your photos)

Kamsahamnida....

3) Zarol & Taan's Wedding

tu dia haih zarol..pedang panjang gilaa

Tahniah zarol & taan...

4) Tilawah Classes!!

Tu la orang suruh buat awal-awal tak nak, bertangguh je kejenya...
(haha kutuk diri sendiri ke..)

5) Paan & Nad's Wedding

Comel gileer couple ni...patutnya ada gambar 1st day tapi blur
(time kat sini perasaan semua keluarga paan senyum stail sama)

Most waited moment for us haha...

p/s: congrats to Hana, Mia & Iqbal, Zaki, Fatin Nabilah, Usop, Paan R. & Izzati, Husna...sorry couldn't make it to your weddings

Monday, May 30, 2011

Alhamdulillah


Alhamdulillah for answering my prayer...thank you, mama for hearing my whining..thank you lecturers for all the teachings and thank you friends for helping the inadequate me.

To those who did not manage to come thru the exam, seriously it is not the end of the world.. I know you will be the best clinician if Allah may..InsyaAllah. Never lose hope ok!

To all my juniors... keep study, study & study. Never forget to seek guidance from Allah. Final pro is not easy. Mainly because of overwhelming anxiety. I remember when I clerked my long case patient. I completely blanked how to proceed. So many loopholes in history and I forgot my basics. He is a 13 years old boy known to have cyanotic heart disease and possibly syndromic but had good school performance came with no active complaint. Short cases were quite ok. I've got tophaceous gout for hand examination, multinodular goitre and multiple gestation.

After they announced the result, I went to Perlis last week for my cousin wedding (eventhough I unable to see him "bersanding"), one of my cousin had laceration wound on her head... so here comes lots of questions regarding this, and that...well I guess as a doctor-to-be, people expect more from us. We not only need to treat but to reassure them. A doctor cure seldom, treat often, comfort always, always and always... InsyaAllah hopefully I'll be one.


Saturday, May 21, 2011

Good Luck!

Wow final professional exam is coming....only two days left. It's been 7 years of study in IIUM. Guys good luck for all of us. Give the best, and pray to Allah for the rest.

Not to forget to my sweet young sister...good luck for you too and welcome to college life! Study hard, pray hard...play smart. Even if I wasn't there but I will always pray for you.

So everyone good luck in what ever you do.

La takhaf wa la tahzan innallaha ma'ana (do not fear or sad because Allah with us)

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

How To Leave Comments On The Internet


Sarcastic yet true...Taken from Doghouse

So guys think before you comment or even writing a blog (don't spread lies, hatred, confusion...)

Friday, May 6, 2011

anxiety is failing me...

2 weeks to come before my final professional exam and anxiety is building up..And I did not even dare to go home for de-stressing myself. Thanks to my last Surgical posting exam that I did it horribly (seriously no kidding!). Here a little bit of what happen during my last exam.

Me: I'm presenting my patient 55 years old Malay lady from KT, Para 3 came w complaint of per rectal bleeding for 1 day duration.

Mr C: Why did you mention about Para 3? Does it relevant? (I kept silent)

Mr N: We are not gynecologist.

Me: Oh ok I'm sorry.

Mr C: You're wearing long sleeve or short sleeve? You should not fold up your sleeves. Button it properly!

Me: Sorry Dr. (OMG...previously I've been scolded for not standing straight, now this? I curse my bad attitude.. In instance, all my confidence had been flushed away)

Summary of my case...

55/M/Lady came with painless fresh per rectal bleeding for 5 episodes in a day that was not mixed with stool. It associated with passing out blood clots, abdominal discomfort and symptoms of anemia. Patient also had loss of weight but no anorexia. Known to have DM and hypertension. On examination, she was pale and per rectal examination revealed there was altered blood.

My diagnosis was anemia secondary to bleeding hemorrhoids

Well in my presentation, I did mention about tenesmus...

Mr N: What is tenesmus?

Me: Feeling of defecation but no production of stool..

Mr N: No..So what is tenesmus? (I think more than 3 times he asked me)

In my history I did say patient had undergone banding.

Mr C: Why did you said that? Did patient see it? Is patient is a doctor?

Mr N: What is the treatment of hemorrhoids?

Me: Sclerotherapy, banding & hemorrhoidectomy...

Mr C: Yes.. May she undergone sclerotherapy..you never know.

Mr N: Ok.. what are the causes of massive per rectal bleeding? 4 causes..

Me: Sorry Dr. I did not know.

Mr N: You are 2 weeks behind professional and you did not know? (This time around I know I flunked it). In this patient what is your diagnoses?

Me: Hemorrhoids, angiodysplasia, colon cancer, diverticular disease.

Mr N: Yes.. At least you should know that for massive per rectal bleeding.

Mr C: Your history has many loop holes & you are assuming too much...What you want to do for this patient?

Me: Resuscitation, admission, blood transfusion...investigations, proctoscopy and colonoscopy.

Later the discussion mainly about colon cancer

Mr N: What is the surgical treatment of colon cancer.

Me: Right & left hemicolectomy, anterior resection, anteroperineal resection.

Mr N: Yes, so that why you have to know what is tenesmus...because if tenesmus occurs, patient may have sphincter involvement.

*sigh*

Then move on to short case, well it was Prof S & Mr Z.

Prof S: Examine this patient upper limb.

I did examine the patient horribly...partly because the patient unable to understand my instructions...when I asked her to grab my fingers, she just pull my hand..seriously it look totally bizarre even from my own perspective.

Mr Z: What are you doing? (Hmm..sorry Dr)

I continued with my examination & found that patient had hypertonia & hyperreflexia of the right upper limb.

Prof S: So what is your diagnosis?

Me: Upper motor neuron lesion involving right upper limb. (The bell rang..time out)

Prof S: Why did you say that?

Me: Because of hyperreflexia & hypertonia on the right side.

Prof S: What else? Ok last question, did you know difference between rigidity & spasticity?

Seriously at this point I have mental block. It is the same question during our teaching. So I ended up resiting for another short case..*sigh*

So moral of the story never ever let your anxiety control your mind or you will end up talking/doing bizarre things...and always be prepared. My poor preparation prove it all.


p/s: tenesmus is a feeling of incomplete defecation. Patient may feel like going to defecate but no passing out motion. If you have any more info do response ok!

[update: Mr C said that tenesmus is after defecation, patient feeling there is still something inside]

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Doctor?

One of my junior tell about a lecturer asked them, "What it meant to be doctor?"
Hmm interesting enough that doctor means:
From Middle English doctor, doctour "an expert, authority on a subject" from Anglo-Norman doctour from Latin doctor (“teacher”) from doceō (“I teach”). Displaced native Middle English lerare "doctor, teacher" (from Middle English leren "to teach, instruct" from Old English lǣran, lēran "to teach, instruct, guide", compare Old English lārēow "teacher, master").
So to be a doctor is meant to be a master of your field. And to be a doctor is to teach & educate others...So have we fit our role as a doctor-to-be?

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Believe it..It is in you



For those who waver....You can do it, just need to believe in yourselves.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

How to spell stupid? B-E-R-I-T-A-H-A-R-I-A-N


If you want to make joke...make it decently, appropriately ok! How come mainstream newspaper overlooked this insensitivity....dush! (headbang)

p/s - Luckily they had apologized..but it still stained.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Earthquakes & Warfares

We are only in third month of 2011 yet there were many disasters and warfares every around the globe since January... Australia flood, North Africa nations crises, and now Japan earthquake & tsunami.. May Allah give them strength to overcome these crises during and after it.. Amen

Alhamdulillah that I live in Malaysia...May Allah bless us all.

For more info regardin Japan Tsunami

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Cik Pisang

Banyak betul orang meluahkan kesedihan diorang dalam facebook/blogs lepas exam ni...exam kali ni memang susah ek? OK, takpe semua. mari kita lupakannya sebentar...Jom cerita pasal hal-hal di rumah lak.

Aku balik semalam dengan perut yang lapar dan berirama keroncong...dah la lama tunggu adik aku sorang ni habis kerja. haish... Balik-balik rumah pergi la geledah dapur cari makanan... Memang confirm la takde makanan kan sebab takde orang pun kat rumah. Terjumpa la cik pisang yang sudah terlebih masak ni (kulit pun jadi hitam dah).

Atas dasar kasihan seorang manusia kebulur ni, maka timbul la niat untuk buat makeover untuk cik pisang ni. Well dipersilakan, Cik Kodok (nama cekodok ni ok). Tambah dengan kentang yang beli kat supermarket tu... hasilnya perut kenyang.

Well keluarga semua cakap cik kodok ni sedap...so double happiness..hmm boleh la buat lagi. wink;P

p/s: Sorry posting kali ni banyak personalization sikit...I'm still intact.


Tuesday, March 1, 2011

. . . .ermm

my..my...nothing can I say at this time. I have examine 1 patient, but I do not know the diagnosis...last word I heard "Give your diagnosis and you can go". Frustrated with myself...this is when the saying "sesal dahulu pendapatan, sesal kemudian tidak berguna lagi" seem applicable... 8 weeks of posting and know nothing about a simple case...totally unacceptable.
I just pray to Allah make it easy for me. Seriously no more foolish act or goofing around for me.
Prioritise, prioritise, prioritise!

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Duit..Duit...

Aku rasa ramai dah tengok kot video ni..tapi bagi yang belum..enjoy!



Bagi aku yg seronok pasal video ni sebab dia ada mesej & aku suka dialek utara dia... Haha teringat kawan-kawan set utara...OK masa belajar pula...haha

Saturday, February 19, 2011

My Laziness

Day by day, my laziness worsen. Yet it is only a week from my end posting exam, 3 months from my final professional exam...oh Allah give me strength to go on. If only I could turn back to my previous self where the hardworking me keep on study and study...I miss my old self.


O God, I seek refuge in You from feeling cramped and restless, and I seek refuge in You from weakness and laziness, and I seek refuge in You from cowardice and stingy, and I take refuge in Thee from the clutches of debt and violent people

And to Allah I pray...may I become more istiqamah in every deeds.


Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Genetics Peril


"MLD was a strange and unfamiliar word within Mohamad and Kamariah's household. But when this enemy took away their eldest daughter's life, they were taken by surprise. From that day onwards, they did not know it the, so things began to get worse.

They were totally unprepared when further tests showed that all their five children had symptoms of dreaded genetic disease. All was not lost, however, for there was a cure but the cost was tremendously high. They were devastated.

It was an endurance test for the family; every minutes mattered, every cent counted, every prayer appreciated. Their plight caught the nation's attention and everyone shared their miseries. It was a suffering like no other; a struggle that was to last more than twenty years!

Share with them this touching and unforgettable experience. For this is a story where we can reflect our own lives, and the true meaning of love.

What lies ahead, no one really knows..."

I've finished reading this book...truly recommended this. Seriously for someone who really, really hate to read even for the academic purpose, it is hard to finish a book what else a novel (I've never finished reading any novel before). One must wonder how on earth that I became a medical student...haha. In life, there a so many ways to study other than diligently reading books. (Hey I do read books ok!)

I amaze on how parental love could do and how the love turned into extraordinary willpower and patience. When I read this book, I wonder if I could act as what Dr. Imran has done to his patients....may ALLAH guides my path.

Currently trying to find the original Malay version of it, Zuriat.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

COMEL and MERCI

Haha...it's no about being cute or else...just a mnemonic that I learn during class with Prof Z...but seriously being in paediatrics is full with cute faces haha. Thanks to Prof for very enjoyable and meaningful session

1) MERCI

Medical
Empathy
Right
Communication
Insight

During clerking we should have this thought in our mind. Not only think for medical aspect only. Every person have it right. "Janganlah kacau patient tidur." That one of the things that Prof emphasized. And some of us talk less and less to patient and never try to educate them on their disease (insight component). Should change our mindset.

2) COMEL

Cognition
Optic
Motor
Emotion & Social
Language

For developmental assessment. Prof said that tr to assess playfully and creatively..

3) VITAMIN BCDE

If we stuck during clerking, always remember this to exclude diagnosis

Vascular
Infective
Trauma
Autoimmune
Metabolic
Idiopathic
Nutrition
Behavioural
Congenital
Drugs/Degenerative
Endocrine

Saturday, January 22, 2011

How He Became Muslim



He became a Muslim because he approach the right person..really amaze how they tarbiyyah him. Every problems/dalil, refer to al-Quran... I wonder if we have similar approach?

"TARBIYYAH BIL HAL"

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Businessboys...


When to Melaka to see my niece last holiday & stopped by at a mussels store...managed by group of children. Pretty cool huh?